Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Leap of Faith?

I freely admit that I am not good at discerning God's will for me. Jeff tells me that it's silly to even try, because God can work with whatever direction I choose. On the other hand, I read verses like Jeremiah 29:11, which make me think that my husband might be off base a little. Whatever the case, I am at one of those crossroads... but it isn't necessarily an either/or situation. I could theoretically choose Path A, Path B, or both.

Before I lose your interest, allow me to explain...

It's not secret that I love photography. I've been dabbling in it for a few years now, but with my recent purchase, I've taken that dabbling to a much higher level. I truly love taking pictures, and with each shot I take, I get a little better. My parents are encouraging me to pursue it - so much so that Dad even suggested I drop out of nursing school and start my own photog business! I brushed it off... for a while.

The thought has been niggling at me ever since. Now I'm questioning whether I'm doing the right thing in continuing school. I love photography, but I don't know if I can make a serious living at it, especially if something was to happen to Jeff and it was up to me to support Braeden alone.

Then there's the question of whether or not I am really truly good enough. I'm getting better all the time, and I'm on the verge of saying "Yes!" - but it's a scary jump to make. I am my own worst critic, you know.

The most logical choice seems to be to pursue both. However, I can't quit my day job just yet, so that means juggling a budding business, nursing school, and work. Can I realistically do that? I just don't know.

For now, I am taking it one day at a time. I'm putting myself out there, waiting patiently to see if God nudges people my direction. In this small town, word-of-mouth could be my greatest advertising. It's just a waiting game now. Perhaps someday I can quit my other job and spend more time taking pictures. For now, though, I have a test to study for. Pray for me, please? I'm really not sure what to do...


AUsome mom said...

Well, I know this is a huge decision for you. I will pray for you and you do the same for yourself. Just ask God to show you what He has in store. But, let me add this little tidbit, for what it's worth. I have been working at the same type of job in the same line of business for 30 years. I wish every day that I had started long ago at something that I loved. At this point, I couldn't make as much money doing anything else, so I just continue to get up every day, drive over an hour and do the same things that I've done for 30 years. I don't like it and never have, but I HAD to have a job and I've worked my way up to some extent. My advice, at your young age, is to do whatever fulfills you (as much as any earthly thing can) because you too may wake up one day and realize that time has passed you by and it's too late to make a change. Right now should be a fantastic time to take Christmas photos of children and familys. Put yourself out there by word of mouth, and maybe in a local small newspaper. Our grocery store has a bulletin board by the front door so that's another idea. If it's what God wants for you, it will happen. But, you've got to do your part by advertising in some way. I do hope you are able to do what makes you smile :)

AUsome mom said...

Me again...........didn't mean to write a book!!