Monday, August 3, 2009

The Mantra of My Life

It seems to me that I am always exhausted. Always tired, never getting in bed early enough, and not sleeping once I finally do lay down.

Today is worse.

I don't have milk for my coffee (cannot drink it black), can't stomach Mt Dew this early in the morning, and I'm fried. The weekend has taken its toll. Death - church - visitation - bachelorette party - funeral - wedding - devo at my house.... From one emotion to the other, from one event to the next... I'm just on the verge of insanity. Can't think straight to save my life. I have forgotten so many silly things - like leaving the keys in the front door!

And it's not me at the center of everything - I'm just on the fringe!

Yesterday I let my girls in Sunday school just talk through some of their grief. They hadn't really had a chance to do that, especially not with each other, and I knew they would need it. Then it was off to the races. We had to get the house ready for the teen devo after evening services, which meant cleaning (inside and out), shopping, and raiding the church pantry for stuff we needed.

Tonight we go to the elementary school to fight the mob and meet Bebo's teacher. Grannie & Peepop are both going with us, so it is going to be quite the family affair. :)

Oh, and in the midst of all this, my car broke down Wednesday and is still sitting in the Taco Bell parking lot. I am completely stranded, and I promise that we do not have money to fix it until the end of the month.

I don't know whether to laugh or to cry.

1 comment:

AUsome mom said...

OH, just laugh :) Crying won't help anything. Just laugh it off and move on. Such is life. Hope you have a good week :)